I came across this quote that was posted by Run The Edge. I think it can be interpreted a few different ways. It spoke to me as I do feel that I am losing myself while on this journey to my marathon. I'm losing my happiness, I'm losing my relationships with my family and friends, and I'm losing my sanity.
I was sitting in my hot tub before my long run on Sunday, contemplating what I need to do to bring my life back to how great it was before the chaos of training started. To get back to having control over my kids, having a strong relationship with my husband, and having the time and energy for everyone else in my life. I weighed out the pros and cons of shifting from the full marathon back to the half marathon.
more time with family
more time to complete necessary tasks
can chase Alicia to the finish line
I won't be able to say I've ran a marathon
I will lose $10 downgrading my race entry
The list makes it pretty clear.
So while I've lost myself in the past few weeks while training, I've also found myself. I thought I would feel defeat, but I feel hopeful instead! Perhaps now I can answer questions of how I am or what I am doing with something other than a numerical value!
So here's to running, Caesars, and happiness! Cheers!